November 15, 2009 by Christian
There is structure and intelligence here.
There is experience here. Can there be no experience? Can there be experience of “no-experience”? This love I felt in time...the smile, and warm feeling, the activity, the realness; where is it now? Now - what is it? Is the universe happening right now, regardless of the subjective experience of then and now? What pushes time forward? Matter, change of matter? The first sentence became before the second. What pushes this on, and why wasn’t this entire text completed before it began? What is the point of experiencing this? To take control of it, consciously? Why? This body and mind moves around in space, with its desires and bodily requirements. For what purpose? Per... more »
July 14, 2009 by Christian
We are creating the past.
Human awareness is like a grinder. Life - or knowing - flows through us, either effortlessly or with fierce resistance.
We know in the present.
When you close your eyes and have the attention on what is going on, you sense that life ticks, from moment to moment. Experiences come and go, thoughts come and go, your body breathes in and breathes out. What is the gap between then and now, here, now in this awareness? The past moments - they were here in this moment a while ago, but where is it now? Now, a new experience is known...but where did the previous ones go? They go into past. The past is not behind us, it is not in front of us. The past is the canvas upon which we create. We do no... more »
May 30, 2009 by Christian
"What is our evolutionary ceiling?" This came question came to me as I was looking intently into this (my) experience. I was considering the human incarnation - our mind, capacity for knowing, creating, and so on. Is it limited? How "enlightened", how knowledgeable, how perceptive can this/human mind be - is there a ceiling to its potential? If so, do you have any sense of what that may be? Will we, ironically, give rise to a new form that is more capable than we are? Is the human, in its present form, the pinnacle of evolution (on this earth/universe)? My sense is no. My sense is that we are infinitely significant now, yet at some other point in space/time, human beings (in its present form) will no longer be. Why ... more »
May 30, 2009 by Christian
"Being equal to ones experience - not rising above it, not falling below." I believe this notion came about while pondering the idea of humility. What is humility, really? Is it multi-definable - and if so, is that acceptable? Is humility a relative (physical) phenomena - movement of the body, speech, etc., or is it primarily within the subjective realm? How can one judge humility? Is humility the same as being modest, shy? Can one be confident, assertive and still be humble? Can one, ironically, be arrogant and humble at the same time? I sense that when most people refer to humility or arrogance, they are referring to the perceived intention/attention of the individual being observed. It seems that even here, peopl... more »
May 19, 2009 by na.ma.ha.
Everywhere I go is eventually disappointing, hostile and bland. I've searched highs and lows and find most all of it levels out. I used to think the world was empty. Even Aldous Huxley proposed that perhaps this world is another world's hell.
When I lived in a party apartment it was constant stimulus. I used to yearn to go home, only problem was that I was already at home. Through this I have come to find that home is more of an idea. It is indeed where the heart is. If your heart is stuck on the past or the future, your heart is not with you. You will never find home without a heart in the present. We could be like turtles if we chose. Our homes could be with us at all times.
I have come to find out... more »
May 4, 2009 by M.S. Meher
Life itself exists,
it needs to have a dream that leads to reality.
April 22, 2009 by mcgee
If the physical reality is real - everything is shallow. Let's pretend you fall in love with some girl, and by some tragedy her face gets blown off - you stay with her? What if her face gets blown off and she loses her sense of humor by brain damage? Same woman, but just can't laugh anymore and has a screwy face? What about face gets blown off, loses sense of humor and can't speak, so you have to communicate from a computer. What about face blown off, loses sense of humor, can't speak even through the computer, and becomes really mean because the brain damage makes her mean. How long do you stay with her? At what point do you breakup? Let's say you're stuck with this woman you loved but the nurse taking care of her ... more »
April 13, 2009 by cakau01
In response to Mr. Aurel Christs existential dilema "who am I?":
I hope this serves as an inspiration to all of us to remind us that there are many things we think, we feel, we experience that is not US. My lesson has been: Get rid of everything which is not you, like the pealing of an orange, and eventually you will be nothing left but that which IS YOU to the core. Here is a little story:
One day, God disguised as a man asked a beautiful woman who sat ... Read More next to in a cafe " is this you?" pointing to her jacket. " No" she replied. then take it off. "is this YOU?" pointing to her blouse, No she answered and it went on as he curiously undressed her not in a sexual manner but as a means to discover her... more »
April 13, 2009 by MTheory
I would like to become able to make decisions without thought. Instead of having to rationally dissect each hypothetical, I would rather power myself by strong visualization of what I hope to achieve by each decision, and act on that driving force - instead of through fear of the terrible things that may happen. I'm sick of visualizing negative imagery and then watching my life suck in synchrony with those images.
I've been too impulsive but not impulsive enough. Like I'll get motivated to throw a golf club over the water, but then when I throw it have doubts and not give it 100% and thus just the whole club.
April 12, 2009 by aurelchrist
I pretend to be strong, smart and popular but I am sensitive, insecure, feel unintelligent and I am afraid of people. I am so afraid that I am never spontaneous and have to go over everything I say or write again and again. I am afraid to make mistakes, close up and pretend to be someone else because I am afraid that people will not love, respect and accept me for who I truly am.
I don't love myself and I think that I am not good enough.
I am indecisive, obsessive with perfection, overindulge in pleasure and I am afraid to be myself. I am not perfect, I am not strong, I am not smart and I am not popular.
But don't be fooled - the only reason I wrote this letter is because I want your love and recognition.